Today was a rough day.

We had two children’s shows…and an evening performance of Frog & Toad.

I didn’t get anything to eat except for a bagel this morning, which was mostly due to the fact that I was a bundle of nerves.

Why the nerves? Because Brent was going to see the show that night, which meant I had to spend the evening skulking about in the backstage area.

Completely ridiculous! I told Jacob & Whitney that I felt guilty doing that. I understand he may not want to see me and all just yet and that’s fine…but I will not be hiding from him again. I can’t bring myself to do it. It’s killing me that the strong will that I have is actually breaking over this!

I completely missed one of Iori’s quick changes. He wound up getting out there just fine, but I have no idea what on earth could have made me do that.

Rebecca Briton came backstage to see what had happened – and asked me what was wrong. She said that I seemed like I was off in my own little world and not focused in the least bit.

I blamed it on having not eaten. I promised her it wouldn’t happen again.

When I got home, Amy & I decided we needed to have a girl’s night and watch silly chick flicks. So off we went to Blockbuster…and there I found a series of DVDs that I splurged on:
- Kenneth Brannaugh’s ‘Henry V’
- Garden State
- Shakespeare In Love
- The Producers (original version with Gene Wilder)
- Freedom Writers

So now Amy & I are going to watch ‘Shakespeare In Love’…and I am going to force myself out of this self-inflicted funk.

I really do need to just get to the point where I can sit back and laugh at myself over all this.

Not quite yet though.