Fates up above, I am so exhausted it is ridiculous!

Two exams down today…one more to go.

It has been “one of those days”. Liek woah.

Last night I just about had a panic attack when I started thinking about everything that I had to accomplish over the upcoming 48 hours. I was exceptionally jittery all day today and my stomach was completely twisted this way and that into knots. Mostly over exams…but also, I’ll admit, in part to the current soap opera of my life.

The day was completed when I received an email from Brent.

I will admit – I was bracing myself for the worst. I figured it would be an email of expletives, cursing me for what I’d done and such. Waldron kept warning me over and over again that eventually I would get the thrashing of his anger, and now it was just a matter of bracing myself for it and trying to make my heart as hard as possible…

…but, most gratefully, it turned out that this wasn’t the case at all.

He had a ‘tone’ to the email. A tone that I knew too well as being ‘director-Brent’ or ‘teacher-Brent’. (Which was certainly a heck of alot better than ‘angry-Brent’ because I just don’t know if I could have dealt with that today.) He actually sounded alot like Ames in his email…which brought a nostalgic smile to my face. He was basically telling me, more or less, that I needed to suck it up and audition for ‘Veronica’s Room’ and leave my personal feelings at the door. This startled me at first because I had no idea how he’d come to hear of my even auditioning for the show, much less my own reservations on it…but then I figured someone at the ‘Frog & Toad’ cast party must have got to talking.

Besides, he knows me really well. I’ll give him that, certainly. He’s clever enough to know my thoughts when dealing with this type of a situation.

I emailed him back to let him know that I did plan on auditioning…but that my concern of hurting him was still going to be a factor, no matter how much he told me to put it all aside. Simple as that. He knows me enough to know that at least. He can lecture me on hardening myself all day to such matters…but when it comes to him, I haven’t quite managed to build that shield around my heart just yet.

Well, anyway…after I emailed him back and got some things cleared ( I hope ), I went back to the theatre to rehearse for tomorrow’s showcase with Dan. That was actually alot of fun and helped to calm me down somewhat. We are doing our scene from “Measure for Measure” tomorrow at the Showcase. It’s not quite as…well, sexually-explicit…as I’d originally pictured it. But I like it. I think Alan hit it spot-on when he described Angelo as being Beckett from “Pirates of the Caribbean”. Very simple…very quiet…and very in control. Dan has adapted his character to that well – and now it’s just a matter of me playing off him. I’m pretty excited about it tomorrow.

OOoohh, you know, I think I will video-tape it! That should be fun.

After rehearsals, it was that dreaded moment I’d been waiting for – auditions! I picked up John Cardy (since he requested a ride) and we headed out to MTG. There was actually a very small turn-out there. I’d hoped to see Mark Nager or Chris there, but it seems they were absent. Sad days. I think there were something like 3 girls, 3 boys, 2 women & 1 man. And Mike said there were another 3 to be coming as well later on in the week.

I felt overall pretty good about auditions. Certainly it wasn’t the best cold reading I’ve ever given, but considering everything else I had going through my mind, I didn’t feel too shabby about it. I read alongside of John Cardy as the Young Man.

Heh.

Mike said he would likely be calling people on Monday. I dunno, I guess we will see what happens then. Should be interesting, if nothing else.

Hah, I already decided that Brent & I should play the young man & girl…and Jacob & Traci should play the old man & woman. It would be one of the most amazingly awkward plays…ever!

After the auditions were over, we went a few blocks down to the Department Christmas Party. That was fun! Whitney & I sat out on the back porch with Alan and talked about everything & nothing. It was nice.

And at one point, Whitney looked over at me and said “You know…*this* is why I don’t want to leave.”

I just sighed and forced a smirk and whispered, “I know.”

Went today to see Jacob & Christopher in a special BAI performance of “Tuna Christmas”.

I wound up sitting next to Bradley Bryant & Whitney’s brother, Trevor. That was fun. Little Trevor is not so little anymore…he’s really growing up! I love that kid – he’s pretty much just a second brother.

The show was so incredible! I was so proud of both of them. They had us laughing the entire time.

And my soul was aching for the dressers that had to make all of the costume changes.

I’m pretty sure my favorite character was Stanley…though I really liked the “director” character that Chris played as well.

Really, such a great show! I almost wish they would do Part III of the Tuna Trilogy…but Jacob has already sworn off that one. Ah well.

Next stop?…Veronica’s Room!

Went to see my church’s Christmas Presentation after that. The drama was cheesy…the music was incredible.

And my little sister?…*glows* when she is onstage.

she gets it from me

Oh my goodness. “A Year With Frog & Toad” is finally over.

I may just cry with delight!

It was a wonderful show. It really was. And I think if I’d actually been performing in it, I would have been a bit more put out to see it end. But performing this show something like 14 times…and having to do as much as I did backstage during it. Whew! It has actually been one of the most exhausting shows I have ever been a part of. Throughout the entire show, I think I had about five minutes total where I wasn’t running back and forth grabbing props or costume pieces or setting things in place.

Bless Iori. I am so glad I got to be his dresser. He made it all worth it in the end. Even last night when I was a million miles away in thought and completely missed one of my changes, he was smiling and laughing and thanking me for all of my hard work. He’s such a sweet guy. So funny too! I’m glad for the opportunity I’ve had to work with him.

I talked with Jacob for some time on the phone last night. And it was a conversation that I found myself desperately needing. It put a few things into perspective for me and calmed thoughts that I didn’t even realize were still running rampant. It was alot of stuff that I already knew in my head…but hadn’t quite accepted just yet in my heart. But I think I’m steadily beginning to find a bit more closure over the whole situation.

…and I just realized how amazingly vague the above paragraph sounds… I don’t really mean for it to be – but it’s touching on a very personal and still-sore issue. You may question then why I even bother to write about it here if I don’t plan to explain myself. Well, truth is, though I write in my LiveJournal realizing that I potentially have an audience…I also write it mostly for my own therapy and so I can look back anon and see when certain events took place and what my thoughts were on them then. I will become vague at times when it is matters that are just a little too private to publicly broadcast. I’m sure my occasional readers understand this.

During my conversation with Jacob, we naturally got to talking about “Veronica’s Room” again. He admitted to me he had something that he needed to bring up, and that I just needed to listen to him and take it in.

I could tell by his tone this couldn’t be anything good.

I said “Okay…”.

He then proceeded to inform me that Brent would be also be auditioning for the leading male role in V’s Room.

I felt like I’d been punched in the gut.

“No!… I can’t do it then! There’s no way.”

Jacob politely told me to shut up and just listen. He let me know that he’d already taken steps on running interference. First, apparently Brent will be auditioning on Tuesday, as opposed to the normal Monday night audition that I will be at. This is good – it keeps us from having to go through the pains of meeting up and possibly being asked to read together. Second, Jacob let me know he’d already spoken with Mike McKee (the director) and that he’d made him aware of the situation. He told him that if he wound up casting Brent in the lead role, then he couldn’t cast me – and that was just the end of that.

I completely loathed the fact that such a conversation had to take place…but at the same time, I don’t believe I’ve ever been more grateful to anyone for looking out for me.

There’s very, very little that could happen right now to hurt Brent & I more than if we were to be placed on a stage together in the “lover” roles. I know I would have an incredibly hard time dealing with that…and I wouldn’t wish it for him by any means.

Besides, I have it in my head now that Jacob is in that role (knock on wood). I don’t want anyone else to have that role. Whether I get in or not is fully irrelevant – Jacob needs and fully deserves this role. It will be a genuine break in his career.

And if I am to get this role…I am going to need someone I can really, truly trust.

Today was a rough day.

We had two children’s shows…and an evening performance of Frog & Toad.

I didn’t get anything to eat except for a bagel this morning, which was mostly due to the fact that I was a bundle of nerves.

Why the nerves? Because Brent was going to see the show that night, which meant I had to spend the evening skulking about in the backstage area.

Completely ridiculous! I told Jacob & Whitney that I felt guilty doing that. I understand he may not want to see me and all just yet and that’s fine…but I will not be hiding from him again. I can’t bring myself to do it. It’s killing me that the strong will that I have is actually breaking over this!

I completely missed one of Iori’s quick changes. He wound up getting out there just fine, but I have no idea what on earth could have made me do that.

Rebecca Briton came backstage to see what had happened – and asked me what was wrong. She said that I seemed like I was off in my own little world and not focused in the least bit.

I blamed it on having not eaten. I promised her it wouldn’t happen again.

When I got home, Amy & I decided we needed to have a girl’s night and watch silly chick flicks. So off we went to Blockbuster…and there I found a series of DVDs that I splurged on:
- Kenneth Brannaugh’s ‘Henry V’
- Garden State
- Shakespeare In Love
- The Producers (original version with Gene Wilder)
- Freedom Writers

So now Amy & I are going to watch ‘Shakespeare In Love’…and I am going to force myself out of this self-inflicted funk.

I really do need to just get to the point where I can sit back and laugh at myself over all this.

Not quite yet though.

Because it would be one of our last chances for some real down-time with each other, Whitney & I got together tonight and watched a few episodes of LOST while the rest of the family was out of the house. I think we only actually wound up watching two episodes…we spent a great majority of the time talking. In general “girl talk” type stuff. Whitney is really stressing on whether to move back to Asheville after she graduates…and, well, I’m just stressing over a very cherished and dear friendship potentially lost.

I confided something in Whitney tonight that I hadn’t admitted to anyone (even myself) yet.

“I think I’ve really lost him. I feel like the person that I knew is completely gone from me forever. Like…I’m beginning to realize that I really, truly may never know him like I did before.”

She sighed and was quiet for a long time…and then simply said “Yeah.”

I have felt the pains of a broken heart before, I think…but never quite like this. In the past it seemed to just fully shatter upon impact. But this time…throughout the past few weeks, it’s just been slowly, painfully torn to pieces. I feel like I’m clinging to something that was no more than a happy dream…and that my fingers are slowly being pried apart and I’m losing my grip upon it and coming to realize that I’d only been clutching at air this whole time.

It hurts.

A text message conversation I had didn’t help my happy delusions either…

Change of plans. Find ushers Friday.

…this is exhausting me!

But he did mention someone else getting the tix.

Good lord…am I really going to have to deal with all this? Fates, I hate this! We are going to see each other eventually. Hiding from him is breaking my heart!

I know. And him being a huge baby about it is good for no one.

The thing that sucks about all this is that I really did care about him. Really. I don’t know who this man is right now. I don’t understand any of this.

You ain’t lyin’, jack.

I keep thinking I should just talk to him but I promised I would let him make the first call. This is just so ridiculous. Oh I hope you are ready for veronica’s room.

I most certainly am. It will be good for both of us.

You have a very good point there. Im just ready for him to get back to the man he was….for all of our sake!

I am emotionally, spiritually, mentally & even physically drained from all of this.

Whitney has heard me reference this scene at least a hundred times – but it’s the best mental image that I have of how I feel at points in my life (like now). It’s a scene from “Fiddler On The Roof” – right before they go into the Intermission. The ‘bad guys’ have just come through and trashed the Jewish wedding being held and all of the family is beginning to pick up all the pieces and stuff…and in the center of it all, Tevye is just standing there…and the expression on his face says it all. He just turns his eyes heavenward and holds out his arms in a “Why?” sort of fashion…

…and he just looks so fully lost & broken.

I think I’m feeling rather Tevye-ish at the moment.

Ah, yes. It is most definitely that end-of-semester time.

I have so much to do…and so very little time to do it in!

- Presentation for Theatre History class tomorrow
- Shakespeare scenes showcase on Tuesday
- 6 more children’s shows of “Frog & Toad”
- 3 more evening performances of said show
- Strike for said show
- Whitney’s graduation & after-party
- Auditions for Veronica’s Room on Monday
- Costume Fundamentals & Theatre History exams
- Theatre Department Christmas Party
- Completion of my not-even-begun stitching book for Costume Fundamentals
- Meeting with a representative of TicketBiscuit for the Box Office
- Two big projects starting up at work

…this…is…sad.

And on top of it all, I really need to wash my hair.

Right now.

Whitney and I watched a few episodes from Season 3 of LOST tonight.
A dude got randomly hit by a bus and I thought the both of us were going to fall off the bed laughing.
Sayid and Sawyer are very fine men.
…but I pick Desmond FTW!

Tonight was a wonderful amount of fun.

My church is performing a Christmas Festival soon, so I have agreed to help assist with make-up. Old age added to some of the shepherds and wise men…glitz & glitter added to the angels…you know, the usual Christmas pageant stuffs.

I spent most of the night hanging out backstage with The Jake – who is beginning to hate me now because I accidentally keep calling him ‘Jacob’. I probably did it five times in a row tonight without even intending to. I’ve gotten so use to talking about Jacob Coleman, that that’s what keeps rolling off the tongue.

The Jake is a good kid, though. I adore him.

…even though he insisted on calling me the ‘red headed she-devil’ most of the night. Guess I deserved that one.

After the dress rehearsals were over, a group of us went over to Brenton’s house to watch “Bourne Identity”. Cleverly enough, Brenton, Neil nor I had seen it yet so that was fun being able to see that for the first time with them. It was a good movie – I enjoyed it. Would like to see the other two now.

Tomorrow we are suppose to present our final scenes in Shakespeare class – and I am not at all in the state of being ready. I mean…I know all my lines and stuff…but Dan & I haven’t rehearsed and I’ve only been over my monologues once or twice. Egh. I’m just ready for this semester to be over with already. It’s been kind of a lame one academically. I’m looking forward to next semester much more.

P.S. It is freezing outside!

So I have decided to take part in the ‘Holidailies Challenge’. Basically, it’s a challenge issued to bloggers to post at least once a day throughout the month of December.

Sounds easy enough…but I’ve seen brilliant writers break down over these challenges via my Friends List. Especially during the recent NaNoWriMo. So we’ll see how well this one goes for me. Hopefully if nothing else it will inspire me to try and keep up with this place a bit better than I have been.

So I’ve added a tag to my Holidailies entries – and will also include my penguin stamp to the bottom of the entries I am counting.

So, here’s wishing all of my fellow bloggers the best of luck with the Holidailies challenge!

“Frog & Toad” performances continued today…and I am so ready for this show to be over!

Don’t get me wrong, it has been a really great time getting to be Iori’s dresser and all – but the truth is, I’m just anxious to get back on the stage. I’m having a very hard time being content with backstage stuff now that I’ve begun to identify myself as an actress. I mean, obviously, I’m only too happy to get to do anything that keeps me involved in the theatre – but I haven’t really done much since ‘Hamlet’. My bit-part in ‘Butter & Egg Man’ doesn’t really count because in that I was focusing more on being House Manager & Assistant Director. In this, I’m Box Office Manager & Head Dresser. I just want to be an actress again! I’m ready to be back doing what I should be.

Daily I grow more & more anxious for the ‘Veronica’s Room’ thing to work out, if for no more reason then I need to be back on the stage again.

I text messaged Jacob to find out tonight about what auditions for that show would entail. He said that it was just going to be cold reading from the script. No problem! I got that one. Hah, like I told Whitney, sometimes I’m a better actress during cold readings than I am during actual performances. I think it comes from having read to my little sister so much when we were younger. I can rock some socks off of a cold reading.

But I dunno…it’s such a peculiar script. We shall see.

I teased Jacob that we needed to get together and work on our chemistry. I just can’t imagine doing this without him.

But back to ‘Frog & Toad’…

It’s been fun. Having all the kids there laughing at Michael’s antics is the cutest thing ever. But I’m tired. Hah, and I really don’t think I’m cut out to be a dresser. I’m good at the management stuffs (Box Office, House, Stage, etc.) – but I get back there to help dress Iori and suddenly my fingers just don’t want to work the buttons and I am hard pressed for time and we are down to a split second of his missing his cue and it’s just ridiculous! There are people like Meg & Whitney that have mad skills in this department…as for me, I think I may just stick to my managing.

(Though, I’ll admit, there is something incredibly powerful about being able to have a guy completely disrobed and regarmented in a matter of seconds.)

And on a random note – I’ve had “Because of You” (Kelly Clarkson) stuck in my head for the past two days. Don’t know why. To me it’s one of the absolute saddest songs I’ve ever heard. To be so broken and hurt by someone that you don’t really feel like you can trust again. But then…I guess in some form or fashion, we’ve all been through that…

So I went on YouTube to hear the song & possibly get it out of my head – and stumbled across this really interesting rendition that I thought I’d share. The vocals alone are interesting…but the music video itself is actually very well done and struck a very, very sharp chord in my heart.

Because of You

About a week ago, I got an interesting text message from Jacob, asking if I was planning on auditioning for “Buried Child” at South.

I told him that I wasn’t – I really don’t like the show & have no desire to take part in it. Why did he ask?

I have a theatrical challenge for you.

Okay, consider my curiosity officially piqued.

Look at your schedule and see if you have up until the last weekend of February free.

Umm. Yep. Looks free. Whatcha got?

Procure a copy of the Veronica’s Room script.

Now, Rebecca Briton had mentioned this show to me as a possibility for me to audition for since I wouldn’t be doing ‘Buried Child’ and really needed to be out there doing something. I had given it brief consideration, but nothing really hardcore. But now to have Jacob mentioning it to me as well…?

If we have the cast that I think we will, it’s going to be a wonderful experience.

We? He would be doing it too then? Oh, now you’ve really got me hooked! I’ve missed working with him so much since leaving ‘Hamlet’ behind. The chance to work with him again…

Mike McKee (the director) asked me who I thought could play the lead female role and you were the first and only person that came to my mind.

…please pause for one moment while I blush and kick the ground in humility…

I will see what I can do about procuring a script to look into it. We’ll talk later.

That script was near impossible to find – but finally I managed to mention that I was looking for it to John Cardy and he said that he had it back at his apartment. I followed him over there in a tempest after rehearsals that night and proceeded to curl up on the couch at midnight to read over it.

By the Fates, Jacob, this play is crazy! Ridiculously dark. Act Two…woah.

I promise you, no matter what the turn out, you’ll be protected.

Makes me nervous that you even have to say that. I’m going to have to think about this role.

And so…as I am ever so want to do…the Libra side of me came out hardcore, and I decided it was time to bust out the ol’ Pros & Cons list. (Yes…yes, every time I have to make a decision, there is a P&C list involved, just do you know.)

So here’s the brief list I came up with…

Pro:
- Get the chance to work at MTG.
- Have the experience that comes with the role.
- Be able to act alongside of Jacob (the biggest Pro, right there! I mean, that one just about trumps every thing else)
- Have something to do with myself between shows at South.
- Whitney might be costuming it, which would be great to finally work with her officially in the theatre.

Con:
- Heh, in all honesty, the script is not very good. Poor writing and characters that you don’t really connect to.
- Getting caught up in theatre once again. Will I never have a normal social life again? I was just getting back to the point where I could have RISK night with Brenton, Twon & Micah – only to go back into rehearsals? Honestly, why do I do this to myself?
- What if, for some very weird reason, Jacob didn’t get the role? It would mean I’d be stuck doing it without him. And I don’t want to do this show without him. I don’t really know if I could manage this show without someone I trust…like Jacob. No…I don’t want to do this without Jacob.
- *sighs* Placing Brent & Jacob’s relationship into jeopardy. Fates, please don’t get me started in on that one. It makes my head hurt.

(Hah, you know what I just realized? I did this exact same thing in my journal just prior to ‘Kindertransport’. Clearly I way overthink these type things. I need to just suck it up and dive in there.)

So that was the very brief list of my major P&Cs upon considering the show.

I debated and debated and debated it. I went round and about over and over again on whether or not I should audition for the role. I wanted to…but every time some Con (especially the last one on my list, I will admit) would cause me to become uncertain of my decision.

I talked with Jacob about it briefly over text and expressed my uneasiness over the situation… He said exactly what I knew he would – which was that I didn’t need to worry about it, and that I should not let that be a deciding factor in my decision of whether or not to audition. I told him I was trying not to let it be…but that it was admittedly difficult. In some ways I already felt responsible for the rift between Mike & Brent – the thought of the same thing happening between Jacob & Brent just broke my heart.

I’m willing to endure it. I want you to be in this role with me. You are the only one I thought of when asked about it.

We’ll talk.

And talk we did. After the opening night of “A Year With Frog & Toad”, I made my way over to MTG to attend the after-party for “Tuna Christmas”. Jacob came and flopped down next to me, and demanded to know my thoughts on auditions for “Veronica’s Room”. I went through my Cons list…lingering on the Cons that were the most important, obviously.

He told me again not to worry about it and assured me that he wanted to do the show with me and that he was willing to do whatever it took to make that happen. (Good ol’ having pulls in the local community theatres.)

I paused for a moment and looked around the theatre we were sitting in, briefly considering the fact that very soon I might be calling it my new ‘home’ for a few months…and I found that the thought was a nice, comforting one.

“Alright then…when are auditions?”

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My Result: Asymmetrical

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Let’s face it, you probably know what you’re great at, it’s just getting over that initial bump of meeting someone new, getting used to them, and warming up to a situation that gives people the impression you might be a little more tame than others. But look out. Because when you reach your comfort level, you’re in the zone.

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